and then….

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i know
all i got are memories
but i’d keep them
inside me
then I let myself smile…

I know i’ve caused you
enough pain to
last you for more than a lifetime,
but i can only ask for forgiveness
enough for my lips to be numb,
and then i let myself cry.

i know the distance
between where you left me,
to where i am finally headed
is lifelong hike,
but that wont stop me
from taking that step,
and then i let myself glide.

i know the feeling of
seeing the blood after the war
between our desire to move on
and the need to surpass each blows,
should be enough to falter, to take
one deep breath, to just breathe…
to just live,
but we finally decided for our own sake
to turn around,
and then i hear myself sucked all the
air needed…for you, for me, for us.

and this post actually wont take you anywhere,i just happened to ,kinda like, hear those words…and then i decided to write ‘em down…

Day 4

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Oooohhh habit that I wish I didn’t have…

Hmmm…
I wish I didn’t start smoking. I’ve been meaning to stop. I can’t say any justification why I keep on smoking but I really wish I didn’t even bother to try. So yeah. I wish I am not smoking…I wish I will stop..for my own sake…hehe

Cheers people.this 30 day challenge is turning into 40…

do you?

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Do you remember the time
when all the things between us
were just black and white?
yeah,no shades of gray.

do you remember
when you used to hold me
as if I’m gonna fly away…
yeah,those time you made me feel
you really wanted me to stay.

Do you remember me,
staring at the ceiling
then suddenly asks you
where this relationship leads to?
yeah,those times you answer me
with a grin,saying,”marriage,
where else will this lead?”
I remember,bliss.

Do you remember
how you used to hold me?
how you used to kiss me?
how you stare at me while
our lips are touching and
asking me,why I automatically
closes my eyes as me kiss?
do you remember how I answered?

Do you remember
the pain in my eyes
each time your gaze
turn to somebody else?

Do you recognize this pain,
as I wait for you
to look at me,the same way
you did when I asked you
where this relationship is
leading to?

Tell me babe…
Do you?