beybi

the look

the smile

the touch of your hand

the whisper

the hugs and kisses

i.miss.everything.

i miss you more…

incomplete

I am staring…
and keep on staring
oblivious to the world
envying the world
their motion
those people
who are lucky enough
not to mind
not to care
or those people
contented enough
not to bother…
satisfied enough
to the state where they are…

the distance is finally
taking its toll on me
painfully…
my body is aware
of the absence
of the warmth
I felt when I
was in your arms…

my eyes will be spending
forever searching
for your beautiful face
and wont stop
until your hands are
entwined with mine…
until the spaces between
my fingers will
be filled with yours…

I have felt
how it feels
being filled
by your love…
now, I am asking myself
how can i be full
without you
by my side…

fading euphoria

euphoria’s slowly fading
nothing is left
but broken fragments
of what used to be.

with each picture
comes with
lessons learned.
another one good book.
closed.
never to be opened again.
another story
need not read.
again.

the euphoric feeling
is fading.
no bitterness.
no pain.
just another smile.
just another picture
to be stacked.
another piece.
another addition
to the pile.

another good thing
that didn’t last.

labyrinth

what’s inside?
what’s waiting for me
at the center?
another creature to
devour me
on my weakest state?
another monster to
eat me while smiling?

in another wishful thinking
part of my eccentric persona..
i’d be wishing for one
alluring Luna…
one inviting Aurora
to lure me…
to make me go farther
and farther…
deeper..
without holding back..
without hesitation..
without thinking twice…

another wishful thinking
i’d be seeing you
there…
waiting…

but the other part of
my twisted mind
laughed…

cause i know
we both know
i am fooling myself..
thinking…
i can pretend
not to expect another
monster waiting
hungrily to eat me up…
painfully…
and watch me bleed…

i guess…

..and I thought you’d be happy

and I thought you wont

be questioning me…

guess I was so wrong..

i am not doing this

just to please you.

you know I’d do anything to make you

happy.

but I did this to free myself

of that tangle…

of that mess…

I want to make you happy

I really do.

I’d do anything just to see

the satisfaction in your eyes..

If i could do something

to ease what i am feeling…

to leave all those doubts behind…

i would…

but i don’t even know when

and how to start.

i love you so much

that i’d be willing to let go

of everything…

for you…

just for you…

but i guess, you know

that talk really is cheap,

that i can say whatever i want

whenever i want to

but we both know that

it will take more than beautiful words

to please you…

to  prove you

everything…