goodbye

i just can’t believe
how you left me in tears
i am still in shock
’cause we’ve survived years
but you’ve put
everything in waste
you leave everything behind
without looking back

you forget….
is there something to forgive?

i can’t find a trace
that i’m used to wake up
seeing your face
i don’t see any sign
that i can still hold you
in my arms.

one snap
you are gone…

how can i hold on
when you want to let go?
where do i start
for me to move on?

heart ripped open
as i hear your echoes
of “goodbye”
trying to have a grip
while knowing i’m broken
tried to close my eyes
but tears have fallen.

i looked at you
and searched for “us”
but with that look, i knew
we only have “goodbye”.

vanishing act

A roller coaster ride
with it’s twists and turns
careful with it’s bump ahead
hold on tight,
Enjoy the ride
because you see
that is life’s vanishing act

Flirt with danger
infuriate your fate
dare with the devil
and he’ll laugh on your wake.
Hope for your death
as you welcome the sun
just swallow hard
that is life’s vanishing act

Trust a friend
as he stabs your back
smile and embrace them
as they eat your heart
move on and accept the fact
that is life’s vanishing act

You wait for a sign
something so you can change
you asked someone to sharpen you
little you know,
You must be moulded, too
so be brave, if needed, be numb
that is life’s vanishing act

You tried to leave a mark
but nobody bother to stare
standing out while trying to fit in
leaping out but you are sinking
just be alive;
That is life’s vanishing act

Life is a bitch
and you can’t compete with it
welcome pain;
It will add pleasure to the game.
you will fall
but know when to stand up
because, again,
that is life’s vanishing act.

Life’s a vanishing act
A reality stands beyond any facts
Many have denied as they may
None have proven of what they said

Standing here, accepting the truth
As it is a testimony delivered from You
The Almighty who knows best
On this world mortals being put through tests
While only few have prevailed
Most candidates have failed

Possessing wealth made them blinded by pleasures
Unaware of what awaits them, disaster
Followed the path lead by falling Angels
While heart cries not to seek for troubles
Once they have face their fate
Things are happened to be too late

Flashing to life they have been through
Wishing they did those things they didn’t do

Should have play it big not small
Given talent, let them shine not shrink
Should have rise at every fall
Not to give up for sadness is where it linked
To Euphoria is where their heart desires
In pain they watch their dreams burned in fire.

With few breath left
They’re hoping to re-sit the eternal test
Wishing to taste the actual bliss
Either physically or through gnosis
But it’s all too late for this poor man
For their vanishing act have come to its end.

in collaboration with ShiDi

euthanasia

my visions are blurry

do i need your help?

take out my eyes

for this suffering to end.

 

i am limped

hard for me to walk

cut off these legs that are burden

leave one crimson spot on the floor.

 

i give you dagger

will you be prepared?

now, must i put a mark

so you can strike my heart?

 

listen…

as i am gasping for air

help me, make it easy

help me die, and you’ll be fair.

 

i am tip toeing

almost at the edge

will you ever watch me

as i plunge to death?

 

slash my neck

from left to right

then stare at it

as it bubble up

when i close my eyes

say a prayer

for my soul be resting

forever.

 

 

 

i am not a big fan of Euthanasia…

jealous…

the world crushes before me

as he hold her gently.

saw my future burning

as their fingers are intertwining. 

saw one hint of white, then

everything is black

as i saw them,

walking; hand in hand.

 

somebody took my heart

in its place

as i saw him return her gaze.

somebody drained my blood

as he looked into her eyes.

somebody took my reason to be alive

as he took her in his arms

someone stopped me from breathing 

as i saw them kissing.

someone took my life away from me

as i heard him say,

“let’s start a family”. 

addiction…

you are such a vice

i cannot ever give up

more like an addiction

i can never live without.

 

tried living without you

but my heart’s crying out in pain.

tried denying what is true

but i know I’m just being insane.

tried looking for a rainbow

without asking for a lil rain,

tried searching for a star that glow

without wanting Mr. Sun to go away.

 

I’ve kissed my tears goodbye

but ended up with a cry

said farewell to false hope

but ending up in a choke

 

now, I’m back where i belong

believing you are my home.

I’m addicted to you, just so you know

never again, i will let you go.