pain…

how to get over
in this emotional trap
that’s been holding
my neck, way too tight?

how can i possibly
tell myself not to flinch
with the sight of you,
while my heart’s been
pulled out
without even the
slightest mercy?

how could i ever forget
the nightmare, that
didn’t happen during sleep,
when it is haunting me
forbidding me of
peaceful nights,
giving way just to weep.

excruciating pain,
agony, misery,
endless melancholy…
i can write hundred words,
but to hope it will suffice
whatever am going through,
is like hoping for moon
to give up her stars,
only to accompany me.

i treated you like brother,
considered you as my friend,
yet you returned the favor
by torturing me without end.

will i ever cope,
with you just wandering around,
the scars not yet faded,
and the insides
still burns…